This is beautiful, and SO relatable! My therapist once told me that there are going to be times where meditation will be so valuable to your mental health, but that mindfulness can be a double edged sword - if the thoughts and feelings are too big/triggering/intense, mindfully focusing in on them won't necessarily help. She advised taking space from meditation until the feeling of drowning was lessened. Now, before I meditate, I check in to see where I am mentally and am much more gentle with myself if the answer is that I should use a different tool. As always, thank you for your openness and sharing your experience! It certainly helps me feel understood <3
YES!! Meditation has been a lifesaver and completely changed how I experience life. But it wouldn't be feasible or safe early in my mental health journey, I needed medication first. I used to resent mindfulness, but I just wasn't in a place where it would be useful until recently
This is almost exactly how I feel. I maybe don't visualize it the same, but the feelings resonate strongly. Six months after getting a new prescription I'm like "What the fuck have I been doing before now?"
This is beautiful, and SO relatable! My therapist once told me that there are going to be times where meditation will be so valuable to your mental health, but that mindfulness can be a double edged sword - if the thoughts and feelings are too big/triggering/intense, mindfully focusing in on them won't necessarily help. She advised taking space from meditation until the feeling of drowning was lessened. Now, before I meditate, I check in to see where I am mentally and am much more gentle with myself if the answer is that I should use a different tool. As always, thank you for your openness and sharing your experience! It certainly helps me feel understood <3
thank you - i don't know how to observe my feelings either
YES!! Meditation has been a lifesaver and completely changed how I experience life. But it wouldn't be feasible or safe early in my mental health journey, I needed medication first. I used to resent mindfulness, but I just wasn't in a place where it would be useful until recently
This is almost exactly how I feel. I maybe don't visualize it the same, but the feelings resonate strongly. Six months after getting a new prescription I'm like "What the fuck have I been doing before now?"