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This is so beautiful. The profound understanding of yourself that formulated in the memory of childhood games has such a pure and genuine energy. Honoring those moments in our youth that made us the strange kids can guide us to insights about the essence of what makes us beautiful if we allow it.

This reminds me of many of my formative childhood games... Characters were created out of stones (characters were based on color, rough vs. smooth, etc...) or another favorite was chess pieces. I didn't actually play chess, but I liked that the pieces had character architypes assigned to them with limitations on their abilities and rules they were expected to follow... I likes finding ways that they could rebel against the established roles they were meant to succumb to.

Makes me think introspectively about the lessons that my child mind was trying to teach me about myself and who I wanted to be.

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As I get closer to physically transitioning (my top surgery date) I've realized that I really do have femininity in me, and that I treasure it. It's just not all of me. Or even most of me? Now that I know who I am, and I don't have to violently deny that to feel 'valid' in it, I can accept that more. The little rosette.. I love that sentiment.

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I used to play a similar game myself with all my marbles, its always conforting to hear from people with similar stories. To know that we are not alone in the actions and aspects of ourselves we label as weird.

I love your work, thank you for being someone who reminds me to be myself, even if I haven't quite figured out who I am!

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I have learned so much from you and your stories, fictional and memorial alike. Thank you for telling them. And of course making me cry.

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Thank you for sharing this story! As a nonbinary person I definitely attach to shapeshifter characters. I remember at the recent Hobbit party in LA you mentioned relating to shapeshifters and it really opened my mind that other people felt that same exact way.

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Thank you for sharing this

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I love this so much.

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It feels like a goal, the genuineness with which you seem to embrace all parts of your gender(s) and identity (though it's obvious you went a long way before that). I mean it; it's beautiful. I don't feel like I'm there yet, not exactly, but your multiple posts shine such an accepting light on this, I am grateful and a bit more confident each and every time I read a new one.

I'm so, so glad I suscribed to this regular dose of F E E L S.

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I loved this so much; it's very poignant.

I've loved shapeshifters too - because they could be whoever and whatever they wanted.

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Damn, this was so good <3

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Incredible. Also a big neurodivergent mood

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Thanks so much for sharing these comics. This one especially hit home.

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This is such a beautiful story. Thank you.

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I'm glad I wasn't the only kid spinning fantastical tales of betrayal and heartbreak with random toys. Always love reading your stories.

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I love this so much 💗

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