:( I... definitely get that feeling. Living is hard, these days. A lot of things just are... off, and we're suppose to keep on living normally while this struggling state really should be considered normal and legitimate.

Sometimes I use this website when my executive dyfunction becomes too strong:


(I'd like to thank my gf for showing it to me)

So I'm dropping it here, just in case.

In any case, I'm glad you're able to enjoy peaceful moments with your loved ones and to take pride in your small achievements. In spite of everything, these can help so much.

Take care.

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I want to say something but I'm not sure what it is I want to say. So I'll let Sam Gamgee say what I need to hear during times likes these:

I know.

It’s all wrong

By rights we shouldn’t even be here.

But we are.

It’s like in the great stories Mr. Frodo.

The ones that really mattered.

Full of darkness and danger they were,

and sometimes you didn’t want to know the end.

Because how could the end be happy.

How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad happened.

But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow.

Even darkness must pass.

A new day will come.

And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer.

Those were the stories that stayed with you.

That meant something.

Even if you were too small to understand why.

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I am sorry that you have trouble with getting the catharsis of crying. I have never liked SSRIs precisely because they tend to prevent that for me. All I can tell you is that your work has been, is, and will continue to be a source of great comfort whenever I am low - and when I am feeling good. I, and many others, are inexpressibly grateful to you, and I wish you nothing but love and joy.

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Your words help me better describe and understand my own feelings. Thank you for sharing them.

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There’s triumph in quiet perseverance. The apathy doesn’t quite burn like the rage or cut like the sorrow, but that doesn’t mean it’s painless. If anything it masks the weight of its burden; we’re not supposed to be numb either.

For what it’s worth I’m so proud of you and that’s not contingent on anything and it won’t change (like barring some sort of crime against humanity LOL) hoping for peace of mind for you soon friend

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Sending you love from a stranger. ♥️♥️♥️

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Thank you for these open and vulnerable comics. I'm sorry you are feeling this way.

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Your art and words brings me joy thank you

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Yeah, I know that state as well... It kinda sucks, and yet one wouldn't want to just get rid of it, as it feels more real somehow than this happy-happy-joy-joy-successful-elated-human-being-mood we're supposed to be in at all times. Hahaha, to hell with it! Leave me alone with my sorrow, for I wanna experience it fully, as one day it'll be no more and I'll miss the chance of having lived a feeling/sensation/whatever, so profound and so intense —yet so quiet; allowing daily tasks to go on on autopilot— that all other experiences pale in comparison. You know, since it hurts so much, that state of being (for it's not even an experience), one doesn't need to hurt oneself "to see if I still feel... I focus on (the focusing of) the pain... The only thing that's real"... Well, big hugh for you, my friend, and thankee for sharing your comics and life and stuff. <3<3<3

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I love you bud

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I feel that too. It’s like a weird limbo between the nice feeling of the good stuff that’s happening and that bad feeling later. It’s nice to know I’m not alone, and you’re not alone either. ❤️

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Going through a depression slump myself, I feel you.

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Solidarity. And you are so loved. <3 glad you know it. I hope the light comes back sooner rather than later.

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I feel like I'm pretty much in the exact same place. My pills are a little different, and my family is different, but the feelings hit me so close to the heart.

At the very least, it's nice to know I'm not the only one who feels this way.

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Oof yeah. I hear that.

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Sending love and good vibes your way 💙

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