I know the "nothing matters" feeling well, and I've benefited from leaning into it. Nothing matters, so why not do something that makes me happy. Nothing matters, so why not do something nice for someone. Nothing matters, so be gay, do crimes, order guac on the burrito, eat the entire pint of ice cream, try something new.
Been feeling the ebb and flow of this one for the better part of a decade. Please know that you simply sharing this experience is incredibly meaningful.
Yeah, I've been kind of moving from the first to the second kind during the last two years, too... If I may say, though, even if nothing really matters, you matter to your loved ones, and they probably matter to you underneath this (understandable) apathy. This will pass, I promise, and strong feelings - notably of joy, of connection, of understanding - will come again. They slowly have been for me, in the last few months, and even though it still feels like nothing matters in the grand scheme of things, my heart is bursting with love for my close friends and lovers, and I think this sense of, of closeness, of community, is so, so full of purpose and life.
Good luck weathering this storm of whatever, and take care <3 As Jorts the cat would say, there *will* be more sunbeams.
Thank you for this. For the first time I was able to recognize the signs of my depression a few days ago, and today it really hit. It's strange seeing how it evolves over time and you learn to change with it - or it's an absolute shock and you just gotta find the strength to be nice to yourself. Anywho, Thank You. <3
Sounding the bugle for you, ND; sorry you’re going through it. Been feeling a similar way lately, like the world could just crumble away from beneath and I wouldn’t care even if I started to fall. Idk how but we’ll get through it. Here’s to our future selves and hopefully some terra firma
I've been there, quite often and recently. Most of my life it's the second kind, which looks less bad from the outside but actually is kinda worse. Hang in there <3
Hey ND - I hear ya. Please hang in there. Many things matter even if you can't tell from where you're at right now. If you have Netflix and want to take your mind elsewhere, I warmly recommend watching "Dancing With The Birds" - it's hilarious, full of beauty and mystery, and a celebration of nature. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i6po8dWuvCI
I know the "nothing matters" feeling well, and I've benefited from leaning into it. Nothing matters, so why not do something that makes me happy. Nothing matters, so why not do something nice for someone. Nothing matters, so be gay, do crimes, order guac on the burrito, eat the entire pint of ice cream, try something new.
You matter. It might not feel like it right now, but you matter
Been feeling the ebb and flow of this one for the better part of a decade. Please know that you simply sharing this experience is incredibly meaningful.
Yeah, I've been kind of moving from the first to the second kind during the last two years, too... If I may say, though, even if nothing really matters, you matter to your loved ones, and they probably matter to you underneath this (understandable) apathy. This will pass, I promise, and strong feelings - notably of joy, of connection, of understanding - will come again. They slowly have been for me, in the last few months, and even though it still feels like nothing matters in the grand scheme of things, my heart is bursting with love for my close friends and lovers, and I think this sense of, of closeness, of community, is so, so full of purpose and life.
Good luck weathering this storm of whatever, and take care <3 As Jorts the cat would say, there *will* be more sunbeams.
Life is weird, humans are termites, and existence is wild. Sending good vibes your way.
YUP. <3
Thank you for this. For the first time I was able to recognize the signs of my depression a few days ago, and today it really hit. It's strange seeing how it evolves over time and you learn to change with it - or it's an absolute shock and you just gotta find the strength to be nice to yourself. Anywho, Thank You. <3
Have you heard of the number where a kindergartner will give you a pep talk? It's not much, but maybe it'll help a little...
707-873-7862
I know the feeling - it might never disappear completely, but there will be better days. ☼ ☼ ☼
Sounding the bugle for you, ND; sorry you’re going through it. Been feeling a similar way lately, like the world could just crumble away from beneath and I wouldn’t care even if I started to fall. Idk how but we’ll get through it. Here’s to our future selves and hopefully some terra firma
I've been there, quite often and recently. Most of my life it's the second kind, which looks less bad from the outside but actually is kinda worse. Hang in there <3
Hey ND - I hear ya. Please hang in there. Many things matter even if you can't tell from where you're at right now. If you have Netflix and want to take your mind elsewhere, I warmly recommend watching "Dancing With The Birds" - it's hilarious, full of beauty and mystery, and a celebration of nature. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i6po8dWuvCI
oof.
I know exactly how that goes.
I'm with you on that, ND. Feelings are still there, but it's more like "Eh, fuck it."
Just learning to live with it is much easier than constantly fighting it.
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