I listen to far too many paranormal podcasts while working and I am firmly in camp 'Paranormal experiences happen when our subconscious mind tries to fill the gaps of imperfect perception and to me this is much scarier than 'real' shadow people or aliens or bigfoot because they are inside of us, we can't really escape them but must face the question how they got in there'.
Our camps needs a better name.
But yeah, experiences are just that. and always real.
Could it be that you're experiencing visual static? It's like this ever present tv snow effect which covers your entire vision. It's a lot more noticeable in the dark
Weird, I had this same experience as a child. I would always stare up at the ceiling and see green, red and blue pixels. I mostly saw shapes and some figures, but nothing scary. I always though it was cool, and I just remembered a few weeks ago that I used to be able to do that as a kid, and I tried to do it again and I can't! Probably because my old eyes need glasses now. I bet the pixel thing had something to do with our developing eyes, and like you said, struggling to make sense of the dark with our non-night-vision eyes.
Hey, I'm going to jump in here and comment on your blog for the very first time on a post that has absolutely nothing to do about trans stuff. LMAO!!! Here's the thing: I grew up being able to see ghosts. My best friend when I was very little was the ghost in my house. He died falling out of the second story window, and he just stayed. He had Down Syndrome (not that it was called that in the late 1800's) and he was the first child born in that house, he'd never been more than a mile from that house, and he didn't want to leave. He liked watching other people's lives, and really enjoyed watching kids grow up in that house, and he thought it was GREAT when our family started being able to actually see him and occasionally interact with him...and then when I got old enough to talk and started acting like he was just *there* and a real person. (My mom would only *occasionally* talk to the ghosts and ask them to stop doing something, or to move out of her way because she didn't like the feeling of walking through them, that sort of thing, and one of my older sisters made friends with the teenage ghost in the attic who had killed himself halfway through the 1900's, but I was the first person to start *regularly* talking to George. And yes, after my sister started talking to Michael, and then later I started talking to George, my mom went and looked up the history of the house, and found out the full names of these two boys, who they were and what happened to them. Which matched what we'd told them.)
So actually, one of the reasons so many visions of ghosts are women in long dresses and men in hats? Is because before about 50-70 years ago, all the women for the past few centuries wore long dresses and *everyone wore hats* outside of the house, and men would keep their hat on in the presence of a lady. Ghosts tend to have what the Matrix called a "residual self-image". It's how they think of themselves as looking, and that's what they look like when they hang around on this plane after death. So: men in hats, women in long dresses. And they're all kind of fuzzy, because most living people can't see clearly into the non-corporeal plane. You're either seeing white or dark grey because that's how your brain is interpreting energy signals - they're not actually reflecting any light at all, so they're not any color at all. (Though sometimes they do put off energy of a particular color spectrum, but that's just a glow; the color of the figure itself is just a figment of your brain interpreting what it's sensing into a visual pattern so you can understand it.)
Also, the guy in the hat grinning at you and walking through the wall? Was probably *actually* trolling you. Because the vast majority of actual ghosts are not scary. They're just people, who happen to be dead, and didn't pass on. For one reason or another they decided to hang around on earth for a while longer. (Okay, sometimes they don't realize they're dead - those tend to be the ones who "haunt" places, but that's pretty rare, on the whole. A lot of actual ghosts tend to be people who just stay here for one reason or another. New Orleans, for example? It's even *more* crowded on the ethereal plane than it is on the physical one. It helps that they don't have to walk around each other, though.) And they include ornery shits just as much as any other group of people. More actually, I've found. Grumpy people as ghosts tend not to show up much around other people - unless you invade their house and *annoy* them. They're the kind the get upset when you *renovate* the house they put their heart and soul into. But unless you move into that specific house and do something that they REALLY don't like, you're just not going to come across a grump ghost, because they don't go anywhere else and don't like interacting with people, and interacting with the physical plane takes A LOT OF ENERGY for a ghost. They're not corporeal, and making themselves known to people who aren't naturally sensitive to that plane of energy, that's like mama lifting the car off the kid levels of adrenaline needed. ANGRY spirits can do it more often, sure. They've got lots of adrenaline, all of the time, they're pissed off. But actually, the majority of ghosts really aren't scary because, even the noisy ones? *They can't DO anything* to you. The most they can do is move some stuff around from time to time. Flicker the lights? Sure, they can do that, they're *energy* - they can affect the electromagnetic spectrum a lot easier than they can the corporeal, physical things. But they can't actually *hurt* you in any real way. Unless you have a weak heart and are prone to anxiety or might have a heart attack from a good jump scare. :)
Now, having said all that, I want to give you an honest and heartfelt THANK YOU for this blog and strip. I've used it in talks with my son several times. He turned 18 last April, and we started on the road to transitioning (his dad is supportive but uncomfortable with children going through puberty making permanent changes to their body based on decisions made while in a fluctuating hormonal state, so the spawn agreed to wait until he was an adult...since he's been consistent with wanting it for over 4 years now, his dad is less uncomfortable with it by now)...he's nonbinary, but prefers male pronouns, and he just started on a microdose of testosterone a little over 4 weeks ago. And the fact that even at a microdose (half of the lowest normal starting dose, is what he said he's taking; I forget the actual number) he's already started seeing changes (I asked him last week if he'd used makeup to darken his mustache that day when we were going out, because it was *clear*, and he said no...and it's been clear every day since then, and that was before his third dose - it's very lightly darker than the rest of his face, but very definitely *there*), is scaring him. So we've had a LOT of talks, and some of your strips over the last year, but especially the past few months have been SPOT ON and very useful. Especially since he's said things like, "Everybody else is always just SO EXCITED when they start seeing changes...and I'm excited, but I'm also scared..." and so seeing your posts have been helpful to show him the differences when a nonbinary person goes through the changes versus when a trans MALE goes through the changes...and it's okay to be scared. So thank you, for putting yourself out there like this. Your voice is helpful and greatly appreciated.
(Catching up on older posts!) Love this one on so many levels! I love how you explain the universality and yet very personal experience of "seeing ghosts."
u described the pixels and i immediately thought to myself "oh yeah..... the spiders, i know those guys, we are well acquainted," which in hindsight is sooo not as fun as ghosts :(
I used to daydream like this when I was a kid. Then it stopped to never come back again. I reckon that my apparition was originated by one peculiar 'Gulyabani', a local folklore character I once saw in an old Turkish movie from '80s. He no longer visits me. I miss him.
have y'all heard of visual snow? I have seen these "pixels" for as long as I can remember (I used to complain to my dad that I couldn't sleep because "the walls are moving!" and he'd have to come and check and tell me they were in fact quite still, lol. I found out it has a name about 8 years ago!
"Dear Jesus...
Zzzzzzzzz"
Lol amazing
so beautiful as always, thank you for sharing your comfort and curiosity!
i particuarly love "dear jesus, zzzzzzzz"
and
"this fuckin goddamn casablanca motherfucker"!
and
your old movie / brain theory!
whether or not you believe in ghosts, it sounds like you really believe in PEOPLE
thank you again
I listen to far too many paranormal podcasts while working and I am firmly in camp 'Paranormal experiences happen when our subconscious mind tries to fill the gaps of imperfect perception and to me this is much scarier than 'real' shadow people or aliens or bigfoot because they are inside of us, we can't really escape them but must face the question how they got in there'.
Our camps needs a better name.
But yeah, experiences are just that. and always real.
Could it be that you're experiencing visual static? It's like this ever present tv snow effect which covers your entire vision. It's a lot more noticeable in the dark
you got to meet the hatman!!
Wow. this is….interesting :)
Weird, I had this same experience as a child. I would always stare up at the ceiling and see green, red and blue pixels. I mostly saw shapes and some figures, but nothing scary. I always though it was cool, and I just remembered a few weeks ago that I used to be able to do that as a kid, and I tried to do it again and I can't! Probably because my old eyes need glasses now. I bet the pixel thing had something to do with our developing eyes, and like you said, struggling to make sense of the dark with our non-night-vision eyes.
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Hey, I'm going to jump in here and comment on your blog for the very first time on a post that has absolutely nothing to do about trans stuff. LMAO!!! Here's the thing: I grew up being able to see ghosts. My best friend when I was very little was the ghost in my house. He died falling out of the second story window, and he just stayed. He had Down Syndrome (not that it was called that in the late 1800's) and he was the first child born in that house, he'd never been more than a mile from that house, and he didn't want to leave. He liked watching other people's lives, and really enjoyed watching kids grow up in that house, and he thought it was GREAT when our family started being able to actually see him and occasionally interact with him...and then when I got old enough to talk and started acting like he was just *there* and a real person. (My mom would only *occasionally* talk to the ghosts and ask them to stop doing something, or to move out of her way because she didn't like the feeling of walking through them, that sort of thing, and one of my older sisters made friends with the teenage ghost in the attic who had killed himself halfway through the 1900's, but I was the first person to start *regularly* talking to George. And yes, after my sister started talking to Michael, and then later I started talking to George, my mom went and looked up the history of the house, and found out the full names of these two boys, who they were and what happened to them. Which matched what we'd told them.)
So actually, one of the reasons so many visions of ghosts are women in long dresses and men in hats? Is because before about 50-70 years ago, all the women for the past few centuries wore long dresses and *everyone wore hats* outside of the house, and men would keep their hat on in the presence of a lady. Ghosts tend to have what the Matrix called a "residual self-image". It's how they think of themselves as looking, and that's what they look like when they hang around on this plane after death. So: men in hats, women in long dresses. And they're all kind of fuzzy, because most living people can't see clearly into the non-corporeal plane. You're either seeing white or dark grey because that's how your brain is interpreting energy signals - they're not actually reflecting any light at all, so they're not any color at all. (Though sometimes they do put off energy of a particular color spectrum, but that's just a glow; the color of the figure itself is just a figment of your brain interpreting what it's sensing into a visual pattern so you can understand it.)
Also, the guy in the hat grinning at you and walking through the wall? Was probably *actually* trolling you. Because the vast majority of actual ghosts are not scary. They're just people, who happen to be dead, and didn't pass on. For one reason or another they decided to hang around on earth for a while longer. (Okay, sometimes they don't realize they're dead - those tend to be the ones who "haunt" places, but that's pretty rare, on the whole. A lot of actual ghosts tend to be people who just stay here for one reason or another. New Orleans, for example? It's even *more* crowded on the ethereal plane than it is on the physical one. It helps that they don't have to walk around each other, though.) And they include ornery shits just as much as any other group of people. More actually, I've found. Grumpy people as ghosts tend not to show up much around other people - unless you invade their house and *annoy* them. They're the kind the get upset when you *renovate* the house they put their heart and soul into. But unless you move into that specific house and do something that they REALLY don't like, you're just not going to come across a grump ghost, because they don't go anywhere else and don't like interacting with people, and interacting with the physical plane takes A LOT OF ENERGY for a ghost. They're not corporeal, and making themselves known to people who aren't naturally sensitive to that plane of energy, that's like mama lifting the car off the kid levels of adrenaline needed. ANGRY spirits can do it more often, sure. They've got lots of adrenaline, all of the time, they're pissed off. But actually, the majority of ghosts really aren't scary because, even the noisy ones? *They can't DO anything* to you. The most they can do is move some stuff around from time to time. Flicker the lights? Sure, they can do that, they're *energy* - they can affect the electromagnetic spectrum a lot easier than they can the corporeal, physical things. But they can't actually *hurt* you in any real way. Unless you have a weak heart and are prone to anxiety or might have a heart attack from a good jump scare. :)
Now, having said all that, I want to give you an honest and heartfelt THANK YOU for this blog and strip. I've used it in talks with my son several times. He turned 18 last April, and we started on the road to transitioning (his dad is supportive but uncomfortable with children going through puberty making permanent changes to their body based on decisions made while in a fluctuating hormonal state, so the spawn agreed to wait until he was an adult...since he's been consistent with wanting it for over 4 years now, his dad is less uncomfortable with it by now)...he's nonbinary, but prefers male pronouns, and he just started on a microdose of testosterone a little over 4 weeks ago. And the fact that even at a microdose (half of the lowest normal starting dose, is what he said he's taking; I forget the actual number) he's already started seeing changes (I asked him last week if he'd used makeup to darken his mustache that day when we were going out, because it was *clear*, and he said no...and it's been clear every day since then, and that was before his third dose - it's very lightly darker than the rest of his face, but very definitely *there*), is scaring him. So we've had a LOT of talks, and some of your strips over the last year, but especially the past few months have been SPOT ON and very useful. Especially since he's said things like, "Everybody else is always just SO EXCITED when they start seeing changes...and I'm excited, but I'm also scared..." and so seeing your posts have been helpful to show him the differences when a nonbinary person goes through the changes versus when a trans MALE goes through the changes...and it's okay to be scared. So thank you, for putting yourself out there like this. Your voice is helpful and greatly appreciated.
(Catching up on older posts!) Love this one on so many levels! I love how you explain the universality and yet very personal experience of "seeing ghosts."
And also parenthood. "Dear Jesus....zzzzzzz...."
The praying bit was epic.
u described the pixels and i immediately thought to myself "oh yeah..... the spiders, i know those guys, we are well acquainted," which in hindsight is sooo not as fun as ghosts :(
"Casablanca motherfucker" made me laugh so hard, thank you
Thank you. That was beautiful.
I used to daydream like this when I was a kid. Then it stopped to never come back again. I reckon that my apparition was originated by one peculiar 'Gulyabani', a local folklore character I once saw in an old Turkish movie from '80s. He no longer visits me. I miss him.
have y'all heard of visual snow? I have seen these "pixels" for as long as I can remember (I used to complain to my dad that I couldn't sleep because "the walls are moving!" and he'd have to come and check and tell me they were in fact quite still, lol. I found out it has a name about 8 years ago!